I was going through some stuff and found my first journal. I was reading through it and found some huh-larious stuff in here. It was surprising to me how much reading this helped me identify some underlying "issues" that I have. I was surprised to find that they started so long ago. Apparently, I've been nuts for a long time. It's not all sad nor is it all about my psychoticness-there is some pretty funny stuff in here. AnywayS, here goes.

June 16, 1991 (This is the first entry that I ever wrote.)
now I'm six I'm in first grad almost in second grad three more days of school on wensday we have a festival all the classes are going to do a dance all the classes exsept room 5 and six case were doing mousersise I'm going to be one of the leaders to do mousersise we have to praktise alot tita is always good she is going to be a good mouskuteer case she gose the same way that i go she is going to be a good leader I wish ther were 5 leaders she is very good at mousersise

December 31, 1994 (we had been on a family road trip to the Grand Canyon)
I'm not trying to be mean but Alyssa (6) is still a big baby in the car to and from, Alyssa had flem in her throaght because she had a cough. My mom and dad told her she needed to cough it up and spit it out, but she was afraid she'd throw up. Besides that I had a real good trip

August 1, 1996 (this is so bipolar I cannot even believe it)
Today has not been great first of all my mom told me to go vacume and weedwack the backyard then she told me to help Bryan with the Hilton's lawn. Then later that night she told me to help him do another lawn well she asked me to and then Bryan came in and asked if I was going to help him. Well I was thinking about it she just came out and said yes she wants to. It wasn't the doing the lawn that bugged me it was that she just decided for me. then later that night I found out that there's a really good chance that we'll be moving. What's wrong with here? I like it here. Plus well have new neighbors, a new ward, and a new school and I'll have to make new friends. I mean I love my friends and will really miss them a lot. It would be nice to be closer to grandma and grandpa's but I still like it here. I can't wait to be 12. I'll be out of primary and I'll start young womens. Also I'll be able to babysit. I'm fat, I'm really fat. So I'm trying to get into shape. Well i guess thats my day. See ya.

March 13, 1997 (I was talking about how hard the move was for me)
(People who read this: DON'T YOU DARE read this until I am DEAD!!!!! Also for all I know you could be reading this in a room full of 20 year old HOT guys) Oh well. wow there's so much to write about. Why couldn't my dad get a job at UNLV? I would be so much happier there. I have a huge room but can't think of it as home. There are these twins Aaron and Chris who are Bryan's friends and Aaron is so cute. I don't know why but Chris is ugly (sorry if he's reading this) and they're identical twins! Go figure. This Saturday I'm going to see Marvins Room because Leonardo DiCaprio is in it. HE is my soulmate even though he's 22 and I'm 12. So maybe he isn't I can still dream, can't I?

June 14, 1997 (1997 was a hard and funny and well documented year for me)
Ya know what's freaky yesterday was Fri. the 13th. Also a black cat crossed my path yesterday. Then today I got a headache. Friday and today Bryan and I were at grandma and grandpa's house cleaning. It wasn't that fun but we each made 35 $.

July 23, 1997
Today we went to a rodeo, it was awful! They were taking these baby steers roping them around the neck. Then the cowboy got off his horse and threw the cow down on his side. I was mad! We all eat hamburger but this is more than just hamburger and steak. This is totally abusing them, and what did they ever do to us? I'm now a vegetarian.

September 5, 1997
It's Friday YIPEE! Well, tomorrow Bryan daddy and Dave Tedder are going to a football game. A BYU home game. I wand to go but I told mom I'd babysit for 5$ an hour. But also part of me wants the money. I'll probably end up babysitting. Either way I'll still wand to do the other thing.

Okay I could go on...so much funny stuff in here...on a later post I'll do some from my more recent journals.